my currenT situatioN

好久没在这里写东西了，这几天情绪不好，想起这个部落格，就写一写我的近况吧。因为父亲又有外遇，妈妈忍不住了，告诉我和我弟，说她要离婚并搬出去住。她问我和我弟的意见，可是我们并没有给她答案。我不懂该说些什么，只知道心里充满仇恨。虽然我爸也有错，可是我恨那女人，也生气我爸为何要重蹈复徹。我不知该怎么办，两晚整夜没睡，又气又哭，我好累。。。 八岁时，我已经知道这件事，却装作不懂，到了十六岁，他们已经断了，原以为有好日子过了，但是现在，没有了。。。 因为那个死女人，我家还面临经济问题，真是人死为何不见她去死！一次又一次地破坏我的家庭，这次真的要散了，她应该很开心吧。我已经不是那个无知的八岁小孩了，我有反抗的能力，不会让她踏进我的家门一步，她以前对我妈下的降，还有那些他妈的无聊电话，我会十倍奉还给她！即使这个家我已住不下去，我也不会让她有机可乘，属于我家的东西，即使我破坏或捐出去也好，一分钱我都不会给她！如果我知道她的所在，我不会让她有好日子过。 我十多年来所承受的，一定会还给她！就算我嘴巴很坏，也不够她所做的卑鄙事情贱，即使我妈不追究，我也不会放过她的！

~The Art of Speaking ; Isn't Art Anymore~

What a life should be? Responsibility? This is the only word I can describe life.
Sometimes, is not one plus one equal to two. The answer might be three, four, five & so on.
When you think you like that thing, you just can’t get it.
When you get something good, you will lose something you really appreciated.
Speaking is kind of art. Words are magic.
Some words can make someone smile. Some words can make people cry.
Sometimes, I just don’t understand.
People says think before you say.
People says be yourself, you don’t have to hide you real you in front of the person you love.
Aren’t these two phrases sounds weird?

In the reality, everyone is wearing a mask when they’re talking to you.
At that moment, I don’t think speaking is a kind of beautiful art for me.
It was like a principle or a rule.
Telling you when you need to wear which mask.

~ Oh Romeo, Romeo~

Love is a smoke raised with the fume of sighs,
Being purged, a fire sparkling in lovers' eyes,
Being vexed, a sea nourished with lovers' tears.
What is it else? A madness most discreet,
A choking gall and a preserving sweet.
-- William Shakespeare

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Friend sicK

Besides tzeh sian, i realised the changes as well.... take a look at it... i keep having fren sick all the time , which is easily cry...

tat day saw swan in times square, looked at the way she talked can make my eyes red...

look at the way we sing k ? is tat us? whr is the craziness of amiko and dance tat belongs 2 us in k room? even chuu bcme quiet thr... n i was hiding aside when i m nt singing... we always make the temperature of k room risiNg , but tat day... i m sryy to say but i feel abit cold...

i miss sa alot 2 ! she's been a leader 2 me n chuu all the time... kinda lost without her...

the farewell wif meiyee at feelings cafe is kinda harsh time 4 me... we both cried...

kweeying & chuaNg... it ll b so diff wif u guys here rite? tats y i mentioned in my msn... i wanna go bk 2 miri, the most happy days tat i had...

i wish things would b the same whr u guys were still walking the life of adv dip wif us... maybe wif u guys here, things would b so much different , n we wont feel so suffer ?

harlo~~

was neglecting the blog for so long
sorry~~
hmm...
i guess everyone is having their own busy life
so were we
APR1 who juz finished our event thing
started to feel boring and my heart is empty
looking for something to fill it...

i miss the time we had last time
look back into the past..
suddenly i found there's much differences
everything changed...
maybe i'm the only one who think that but i really feel that we are not like before
wonder if its a good or bad thing
i hope it is a good one
but so far i still hvnt get used to the changes and i prefer what used to be happened last time
i miss everyone who left us...i miss everything in diploma
sa~~sorry for did not give u a big hug on convo that day...i really miss you....T.T
meiyee~~i miss you!!!when you were here....we had much laughter than now.....i miss the time we do assignment together.....although that was a hard time but i did enjoy it.....
bao~~i miss the time v chit chat....and i love the way u laugh...now no one share k pop things with me ady...haha~~
kwee ying~~how r u??i miss you also....hope to hear from you...hmm...........i want to tell you everything...like last time....you're my best listener......
and whoever left us.......I MISS YOU ALL...
dunno how to describe the feelings..but i really can feel the changes....which not everyone can notice......
hmm.......i dun think there will be chance for us to meet up anymore....its kinda upset for me...
but i hope so
i hope v'll have gathering sometimes in the future~~
ALL THE BEST all my dearest frenss~~~
I LOVE YOU ALL~~keep in touch!!=)

Sorry ❤

Sry to all my fren coz im nt attend the convo 2day...i hope u guys r 4giv me n havin fun...
my bro juz found out my car road tax had expired almost a month n i was so syok to drive here n there...
my dad was nt allow me to drive unless renew the road tax...bt its sunday 2day...
sry to all my fren...i miz u guys veri much...

besides that, congrat to u all...
2 years of diploma,i noe u guys in year 1...i was reali regret tat i never study well in year 1...
i missing those time which studying wif u guys...T.T
im reali sad i could nt be there....

congrat u all had graduate...may u guys hav great future life~

~ The last part of my college life with you all~

My dear college mates aka my dearest friends. Tomorrow gonna be our big day for our friendship and also our 2 years closest relationship. Here, I want to say thanks for taking care of me in this two years and also spending your time and love for me. I do really appreciate them. I learned a lot from you girls and also had a very great memory in my life. Because of you girls, I do miss my college life. Maybe in the future when we meet up again, I might be the lower educated one, but hope you girls dont mind to hang out with me again. Two years of close friendship arent easy for me, because I am a person who dont really know how to communicate or impress anyone in my life. Sometimes, I do have bad temper but luckily i have you girls who forgive my bad. In my heart, there is a very complicated feeling now. I dont know how to express it out but only keep it in heart. I know you girls feel the same as i did, right? I dont know how to share my feeling or say anything good, but I know you girls will understand how I really feel now.
Tomorrow is a big day for me, maybe in the future we wont have such a chance to meet each other that often, but remember to keep the same feeling that you have now in the future. Passion of study and future must continue burning in your heart. I know you girls can do it well.
Tomorrow remember to gimme a big hug before i really leave this environment and leaving you girls. =) but remember dont cry ya, because tomorrow gonna be our BIG BIG day and all of us must be in the perfect condition. =)
See you girls tomorrow. <3

Bulat 20th

WAHAHAHA... am i bad?? look so cute XD...Anyway wish u Happy 20th bday~ all the best to our beloved Bulat... Hope u enjoy urself at Nando's n Feeling cafe just now!!

* more photos will be uploaded soon~

When the east meet the west...

Long long time ago, a girl from east come to west msia to further study... After few months in west, she had knew a brunch of awesome friends~ but something went wrong when she knew a girl from Gombak... the girl from east had been polluted by her alots!!! Their friendship start from a funny conversation.. am i rite??? Let see what they have done through out the day...

They use this transport to travel everywhere!! don play play o~ is UFO!!!

Their first destination is Greenland... but why their expression so different?? XD They left Greenland after taking photo because the weather too cold~ n they forgot to bring sweater... really sweat rite?

So they travel to Taiwan n having desserts there.. Nice dessert~

Here they came~ Southern Mongolia!!! OMG~ this is what will happen when the east meet the west... They will do those unethical things... they were molesting the camel... hiak hiak hiak!!

Can u spot the differences between these two photos?? Why left the Gombak's girl alone at Australia? and the background of the photo does not look like Australia rite.. this is so called unique!! HAHA

Because the east went back to her own country and give the opportunity for the west to find her dream man at there~ Hope she will success!!

-THE END-
Anyone who wish to travel by UFO with us , plz register yourself asap... First come first serve.. seats is limited~

~ Miss me ??~

I miss you guys and my college life.... its great to have higher education....maybe i should tell myself...but nvm, bcos i knw study is oways never too late...i knw i can do it...... when u guys graduate, dun yim hei me tis low educated geh fren then ok jor...haha~

LOL.....miss my 6618 wor?? haha...long time didnt write here dy.... i think all of you are so busy with assignments and event...good luck to all of you la~

my way~

actually i dun really like this song...and its kinda old song...but its lyrics r really good....


dear all my frens who lost their directions or finding their own ways or struggling now in advanced diploma.....hope u all can find your own way...no more lost....all the best ppl~=)


My Way...

作曲：张敬轩 作词：张敬轩 编曲：张敬轩

一直在酝酿
一直在盼望
爸爸和妈妈唯一的理想
二月第一天
一九八一年
我第一次对他们眨了眨眼
等待快点过去多少个明天
希望这个宝贝快快长大一点一点
身体要健康所有的事情都如所愿
baby 长大以后就是小轩
so i will find my way
i want a different way
i'll change the wind and rain
there be a brand new day
小时候受伤有人心痛失落有人安慰
现在遇到困难自己就要学会面对
i will find my way
i want a different way
nothing will stop me now
no matter what they say
困难要用我的坚强和努力勇敢面对
现在用心去追
感觉就对
i'll find my way
一直就这样
找我的方向
不理会别人奇怪的眼光
直到有一天
我忽然发现
梦想已经在实现
等待快点过去多少个明天
看着自己已经慢慢长大一点一点
我的生活应该让我自己学会掌握
想信自己
不怕风雨再多

all the best dear frens~=)



with love,
~Sian~

Mcd Jucso

THE TWO GIRLS WHO LEFT US AFTER DIPLOMA... sienz lo~ actually still gt others who left us. We meet them at mcd and have lunch there as well... and is time to 3 8 again!! This is our style~ n i think we are the noisiest at mcd....

Here the main characters ~ actually ShuChuang is just the main character!! Look at their 3 8 face...SwanGan is forced by me to go for the lunch... so count her in as the main character as well~ give her face!!!

Look at VION!!! Everyone is eating mcd value lunch except her~ so pity!! -_- n that bulat still dare to take photo with her burger n show off here... bulat~hiak hiak hiak!!!

***We will have steambot with our beloved BULAT this coming thursday!! Hope everyone can join~ IF gt transport problem, plz inform her!! she will arrange for you~ bt first come first serve coz she is driving wira, nt MPV!! AND BULAT, U BETTER DON LAST MINS FFK!!!

~ Chu * The ROCKER~

Change(part1)

当一切将变型的时候，你的一切将也会改变。
时间，人物，地方等，就连思想也会开通！在改变的事实而并不是你想要的时候，心痛的感觉真的有如刀，直入心里，痛得叫不出口。
改变也许是件好事，但要从何改变呢？思想？
。。。。。。

happy graduation!!hehe

as i promised..i'm nw here after the result published
wooohoooo......!!!!!
we all r graduated~so so excited and glad that everyone of us can graduate together
its the greatest thing ever
god blessed....
really really hv to go temple more frequently to thank all those Gods that we prayed for....hehe
when shud we celebrate for it...?kekeke.....
yaa....me, vion, caryn and eddy met meiyee in Fun Taipei juz now
meiyee....~~~
honestly....we all really miss you so much
this time we met but dunno when's the nxt time
hope u can get a great job soon no matter wherever u r...best wishes for u
but the most important thing is~~~never ever try to forget us!!!
if u do so...i'll never forgive you
whoever leave us....this warning is for all of u too...!!
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okok.....switch to another mood...
advanced life started and we all gonna be very very busy.....zzzzz......
but its not gonna be tough if we all enjoy it
i guess it'll be fun^^
hope i'll enjoy it very much...and u guys too...looking forward to it
advanced life...to be continued.....^^
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hehehe.....since sze chee was sharing his nephew's pic
so now i'm gonna share pix of the child my mom babysitted last time
nw he's 4yo and going kindergarten...so we no longer babysit him

he is a child which can make everyone loves him so much.....and without angry with him......he is a very handsome child....haha...his name is Lee Jin Hao

that's all for now.....XD

with love, ~Sian~=)

Officially Graduate...

Time flies... seriously!! Can u imagine when we are in one freaking year 1 sem 1, we don knw each others. Once we know each other better n become 3 8 n 3 8, some of them decide to leave their own path. And now, we are officially graduate in Diploma in Public Relations. (oh yes.. finally cn graduate)

I really had an awesome 2 years in Tarc with a bunch of awesome friends. DPR2 B2 actually got a lot of weirdos but as time passes, I found that they are not the bad as i thought. They are very special... Here are those specials~ Venessa, Eng, Gan, TzehSian, Caryn, MeiYee, Vion, Amiko, KuiYing, ShuChuang, CheeSiang, Eddy n many many others...

I felt glad to have all of you as my friends!! Hope our friendships will b forever n ever!! For those din continue advance, wish you all the best in your future... For those continue advance, im going to see you soon....

Yeah~ Graduate dy!!
We are the best....

wat mood??? = =?

juz passing by....
and informing u guys that i'll only post another post after got my result..
keke....
ok....
pray harder to make sure god hears us...haha
pls looking forward to my nxt post....
good luck all my frens~=)

~ Nothing much about my holiday~ * trip N outing photos

Headache for 1 week!!!

I had spent 1 week of my holidays babysit for my almost 3 years old nephew, Anderson Chu. He was driving me crazy for that week. I almost vomit blood when he did not listen to me and keep throwing things when he angry. He will knock my door every morning around 7am n say "Gu Gu, wake up!! faster wake up!! we go kopitiam yam cha with Gong Gong liao!! -_- ask me to wake up early in the morning is like killing me. No choice.. who ask me take the responsible to take care him!! Haiz... After breakfast, it is the time to babysit him... Headache started at this moment!!!

Here is one of the dialogue with him when we are on the way to Parkson...
Anderson:姑姑, 你在听什么歌?
Me: Lady Gaga~
Anderson: 谁来的哦?
Me: Lady Gaga la... 你不认识的啦!!
Anderson: 姑姑, 你的朋友??
Me: erm....
Anderson: 她唱什么歌哦?
Me: 英文歌... 好听吗?
Anderson: 不好听的... 作么她唱 rah rah rah de...她乱乱唱??
Me: 不知道哦... 她应该是要变 LION liao~ (wat a lame answer...hahaha)

This is my cute but naughty to the maximum nephew, it is impossible for me not to shout at him everyday... and i almost canned him everday as well!!My parent n his parent owes scold me because of teaching him many ojibala things... who ask him owes bully me!!! hahaha...

Good Luck everyone~ (20th is coming)
We can graduate!!!

~ A nite with Chu~

Breakfast with Chu early in the morning at 5.30am. Haha. First time breakfast with her so early, summore she spent me geh! After we spent whole nite to chit chat and think where to breakfast, at last, we decided McD again. Haha~! Actually no different for me, cos important is the person not the food. =) Is a great night for me.


Before she left my car, i snapped a picture of her. Haha~! The venue is KL Central. While we're still chit chat-ing in my car. Bye chu~! Haha~! I will miss you. See you during our new semester~ if i pass...haha~

Bye.

I am going back to awesome hometown later. I sure will miss all of you so so much~ And you guys must miss me as well o!!

Special thanks to Venessa for fetching me to Kl Central very early in the morning to take KLIA Express. Really thx alot~ 6618, i gonna miss u!! (spent a great nite talking wf sa!! din sleep for the whole nite coz scare miss the flight)

KL Hop On Hop Off Day

The free flight bird park..we were really scared of the bird's dropping...hehe

Meiyee:it is exactly ur fren...it reminds us of u...LOL

After bird park..we hop off to klcc...

When waiting for Sa's meal...look at szechee's teeth...haha

another angle of tired kwee ying...hehe

LOL...we shooting each other....this is my part...

The set we order....RM36 for 3 persons...not so nice...hehe...

it was fun to act like a tourist to hop on hop off in KL...and of coz it was more fun to have it with u guys....i enjoy it so much thou v were tired...thanx for giving me this great memory...

i love u all~=)


with love, ~Sian~(=

~ Hop on and Hop Off Day with THEM~ Part Six

The last stop of our day~ KLCC. Hi-Tea with THEM~!

Super tired geh Kwee Ying~
















The Chu!
















Very happy geh tzeh sian~! Haha~! We snapping each other!















The place we had our Hi-Tea, Dessert's Bar!
















The set meal that i ordered~!












Quite cheap but not nice~!
















Their Hi-Tea Set~!